Quit or Stay?

listening cat and mouse...
by The Red Jumpsuit Apparatus


Working like usual but today....
'Hey remember back home... i got something wanna discuss with you...'
say by my dad... i wondering why suddenly dad phone me when i working... sigh...
my heart start ache... ache deeply... 'why so pain?' i asking myself...
my mind start worrying on... on my family... 19 days carry on...

there goes 9pm... i'm done today... ride my motorcycle... slowly....
my mind keep repeating on the sentences that my dad say...
i really scared... *nearly crash... a car pass through me when i were scared...
sigh... 'i'm home...' say to the family... keep my mind refreshing... eat dinner & take bath...

dad's call me..
'come... let's have some talk....'
from that moment... i know there is a big decision to me decide...
so... i just open my ear's listen clearly from what my dad say...
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'i know you [reader] really interested on what dialog my dad said....
but really sorry to you all... i won't write in my blog but you can ask...
in real life... i will tell the whole bunch story to you.... take some time...
go Kopitiam take sit and take.... or you date with me... if you doesn't mind...'


son... now is depends on you....
either you want quit or stay...
my mind crying.... *sob....
i leave without saying a words...
went to my room...
and shut the door...


i'm done now...
the backpack.... going to endline...
once it cross the line... i'm dead...
what i means....
keep increasing the weight..
day by day... NO! or should i say...
second by second...







Kent's here 12.18am....
18 days to go...


Kent, you must survive...
if you die... who's going to take cares..
your family?
MR.Kenedy said...

The stuff too Heavy!

listening Haru Haru by BigBang*

I'm in a very Stress mode....
the feelings of my mind is like a hard metal thrusting on it....
so pain...I too young to handle it..
sigh..no choice..this is my destiny...
watching days keep on going without waiting...
nervous when i think the way to earn and save...
keep on counting and counting...
those pictures is just take around 11pm~12am...
comment on it..

sob*

#1

I don't want to be like this.
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#2



Look closer...
you may know what mood is he in...







i didn't expected that i will become like this...
From what i become now..
i couldn't dare to think about what would happen to me next..
what else i can do?
sigh..
sob*


~Kent was here at 1.56am~

Look forward.

11th January 2010
Finally the fair is end..
i end up my work at 2.00am~
Damn freezing when speed is on 110KM/hr...
somemore Police Block...
haiz.. 2.10am... just park a side...
and show IC and Driving license..
and continue my way back home...
arrived home at 2.25am...
After done take bath...
Surf net for a few minutes..
and Sleep till 8am..
When wake Up...surf net again...
till 10 sumthing..and sleep again..
Wake up at 1.30pm..Owh shit..
I have a meet at 2.00pm with Sarah and my gangs..
rushing to there.. having my break and lunch at same time..
then chat and dismiss..
kinda bored and worries with my life...
sigh... but no choice... i have to continue my life..
Cause... My Family ECO is depends on me...
I have to work... The Weight of my backpack keep increasing...
Damn heavy... sigh... Mark UPED...
from now on... i MUST saving my money...
and use my head to earn MONEY for my family if..
there is any things happen or urgent about money..
i Believe my spirit... can handle every tough things..
so..

Kent..
work hard..
you can do it...

~kent was here at 1.30am~

I would cry out... If there is no one...

Well...
fair started and second day ended...
last day is coming...
so... Carry on... dont did the failure..

today quite less customer buy laptops..
and... unit i have from morning till 6pm..
is 0..damn moody... summore... some ones say me...
笨7... on that moment.. my mind started crying..
just like a heart attack... stunned...
i will cry out loud..if... there is no ones around... sigh..
luckily.. today my friend come visit me...
console me.. and supporting me..=)
although she wasn't with me for long moment..
but... i satisfy... she's accompany eating lunch..
my mind smile again..and..
below is the picture~
we captured together..
hees =)

#1

Kent & Sarah

Kent go for it.
Last day now..
Hit The target!



~Kent was here at 2.45am~

#.#

#.# do this emotion looks familiar?
if you don't know what it means...
i can explain to you...
remember your childhood?
when the weekends is around most of us sure will stay in house..
cause... IT's time to watch cartoon..
sigh.. this emo shows when the character of the cartoon headache...

Well...
now is my turns to HEadache..
sigh... in this week... OUR's oFF days rejected..
cause is fair week~ and we...preparing for the stocks~
and carry to the exhibition place...
work start early...back home... LATE...
sigh... all the muscle pain~Damn tired...

tomorrow..
more worst... the senior say...
remember buy some bread and take few bottles of water...
you have no time to go out buy food~
the only thing that in your mind is rushing for the fair..
walao...work without rest..sigh... now fair haven't start...
already become half dead people..
when the fair end..
sure become dead man..
what else i can saY?
obey only la..
listen and silent no argue...
settle the things ASAP......

Waiting for off days!


Mr.Kenedysay..
try your best...
Kent..

bye²'09

Although today is the first day of 2010...
but... i still missing the days in 2009...
the days with Friends.... Gangs...
sigh..never mind..just carry on..
well..last Night...31th December 2009...
we gather at..Chun's house...
'Cinderella boy has improved to BIG BOY'
chatting like usual...and..count down..
weird acting... and shouting..
HAPPY NEW YEAR>>>
when there's a passenger pass through..
we'll shout out loud...
it's fun when someone respond to us..
damn laughing..there goes...2010..
Improve all my habit..
keep fit..lol..
=)




Mr.Kenedy say.
"kent carry on , you can make it."